Wednesday, January 11, 2012

My Testimony

Okay, so I have been experiencing some amazing things in my life lately. All I want to do is share how I feel, and maybe it will inspire some of you! So many of you guys know me as the crazy party girl, and yes at one point I was. However,  I can honestly say that is no longer who I am now. I was in high school trying to fit in and be everyone else's definition of "cool". I had so many things going wrong in my life, and I blamed God. I turned my back on him. I got so caught up in what I was doing and who I was trying to be that I lost myself. I have suffered many losses due to my stupidity. I was lost in a relationship that was doing nothing but pulling me farther and farther apart from god. I couldn't even have fun without being high or drunk. It was so pathetic. I thought those things were making me feel better when in all actuality it left me feeling more empty then when I started. Two weeks ago my life changed. I went to someone's house expecting to not be there long and leave. I didn't even want to go. It turns out that we got into a deep conversation about God. That conversation saved me from going to a party that night. The whole night I sat there and thought about the last time I prayed... I couldn't even remember. That made me so ashamed of myself. I continued to think.. I have been at the lowest point in my life. There was nothing else that could go wrong seriously. Something sparked in me, and it was god. I went to church last Wednesday for the first time in a very long time. I felt god speaking to me. That night I broke up a four year relationship because God told me to change and let go of what was going to bring me down. So I did. Tonight I went to church and experienced something that was so amazing words cannot describe. I've been so lost in life and trying to find the right path.. I was looking in all of the wrong places. GOD IS THE ANSWER. I prayed tonight at church. I told God to save me. I have been wanting to accept him into my heart for so long, but I had so many distractions. He told me tonight to let them go. That he has me now, and he will never let go. I broke down and just cried. I cried really really hard, but it wasn't a sad cry. It was a cry of relief a cry of happiness. I want you all to know that if you are like I was; if you are lost in life. Look up, GOD IS THE ANSWER :) It's crazy because this is just the beginning, and I am happier then I ever have been in my entire life. I am on fire for God.

6 comments:

  1. Alysha, I just want to say how happy and proud of you I am! I know we have had our moments but we are now sisters in Christ! God is working through your life and he has an amazing plan for you and I honestly can not wait to see this plan! You are a strong, beautiful girl and I know you can and will make a difference in other peoples lives! Do not let anyone else tell you otherwise. Stand firm in God's word for he is with you at all times and will never give up! So happy for you! :)
    -Samantha Scott

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  2. Awh, thank you girl! That is very true. I am just now starting this journey and it's already so amazing. That means a lot!

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  3. Alysha this is truely inspriational! It made me tear up because I've felt distant from God lately and this reminded me he is always there for me.

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    1. Thank you! I put it all out there, but no one gets the glory except god.!! :))

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  4. thanks for sharing your story!!! praise God for redemption!! :) so thankful to have met you the other night. You glow jesus my friend.

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